Living a dream?? And during xams to boot.

Over and over I've heard or read about people who went through the motions of day to day living but remember it as if it were a dream. Somehow it feels as if I slept off on the 23rd and woke up on th 26th but dreamed my way through Christmas. Don't get me wrong here just keep an open mind. Usually during the festive period I am a huge part of the celebrations. I live christmas but this year I experienced a certain detachment from all around me. I felt like a person on the sidelines. At first I was a tad worried but later on it turned into oneof the most profound times of my life. Watching from the sidelines gave me a new appreciative sense for the season. Some people think of christmas as a time to rest, some think of it as a time to gorgee themselves with food and drink. To some its simply an unwanted expense when you have to spend money on senseless gifts. But I watched a few people who seemed to have it pegged down pat. To them chritmas is a time to love and share and be merry, a time to forget your worries and let yourself go, a time to be with family and friends, to give selflessly to the woorld. Isnt that what the birth of christ was about. It signified hope, symbolized unwaivering love and devotion. I don;t think I will ever forget this christmas.